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Why must good things come to an end?

Thu Nov 5, 2009, 10:32 AM
  • Mood: Distressed
  • Listening to: Shine On You Crazy Diamond by Pink Floyd
  • Drinking: Mucho watero
I was gone and had a wonderful time.

Freedom that I'd never once believed I could have and I wasn't so careless as to let it overwhelm me into a life of decadence.

I covered thousands of miles and a number of states.

Saw many new things, ate new things, experienced new things and good or bad loved all of them.

Most importantly I wasn't tied down or distracted from myself. I wasn't influenced by anyone other than me and my mind and it really helped me to dig deep into who I am.
Granted, it was a bit lonely at times I still had the kind of profound exploration that a lot of youths experience in college, only freer. I didn't have classes or tests to worry about. No partying, no relationships, nothing to focus on beyond the phenomenon that had manifested itself as who I am, whether conscious or subconscious. In doing so I've finally come face to face with a BIG fact about myself that has always been there and is really very obvious if pointed out, but denial is a bitch sometimes....maybe I'll share it with all of you sometime, but now? Not quite ready yet. It's a BIG change and I'll leave that at that for the time being.



I kept a journal of my travels and maybe I'll post a trimmed down version of that on here one day but I've got a lot that needs to be taken care of first.

I really could've kept going on the road for another month at least. I had/have the finances to do so and I'd finally figured out all the tricks and workings of life on the road, but I didn't. Maybe I'll go into that later too since it's directly linked to the prior mentioned thing.





As soon as I saw my home town I started to feel chained up and stifled......

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:iconjeevani:
Epiphanies! Discoveries! Revelations! :D Horray for self-realization and suchlike. :meow:

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:iconsebastian14:
Everytime I visit home, I feel like the back wall of a box has been sealed shut and I'm still inside.

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Yeah....that's sort of what this feels like. To me though it's more like I'm being weighed down and I just can't fly to where I want to be.
:iconsebastian14:
sucks. But you'll hit the road again yes?
AND my curiousity is killing me to know what you learned.

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"'We need to talk', never meant anything good. It was never something along the lines of, 'I think we need to have more sex'. "~Eden

"I feel like an angel baby swaddled in a cocoon of cloud candy."
~Tim Curry (Psych "American Duos")

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